Live on with Hope

This April gives a sense that it is passing so damn fast… All in a sudden, we are reaching end of the month… and spring season is always beautiful with not-too-warm-not-too-cold nice weather, plus no more hassle on clothing before going out…

This recent time seems quite relaxing… Next weekend got Labour Day holiday and we will be having 3-day off (but Sunday has replacement class pulak) then the next weekend have another 3-day off again due to 9 May which is Victory Day in Russia…

Don’t know what I am going to do yet during that precious short break… but for sure must appreciate them very much… Tired and bored of everything la…

Recently, my life is full of football topics again…yeah, again… In spite of our own football league which so far our 2nd year team is performing ok, though not among the title challengers d, but we are not in relegation zone also… haha…

Then, there is topic about Manchester United… I got the chance to watch live Champions League matches here, though TV here never show league match ady… So, hottest match recently of course is Man Utd vs Barcelona in semi final…

Just now unfortunately Man Utd lost against Chelsea in Premier Leagu… and seems the whole world is thinking that Man Utd has lost the title… aiks… come on, we are still on the top of the table, and we are holding great advantage on goal difference too… Just continue to have faith and hope, as Man Utd always define the real meaning of hope and miracles…

Anyway, I found that I have lost something in watching football here… maybe that something is called true passion and true support… Seems like no people around here support Man Utd with true heart, or should be label as Glory Hunter… when Man Utd on top form, everyone glorify them like heaven, then when in down time, criticise like hell as they are actually anti-Man Utd… Please la, if one call oneself as supporter for a team, then be a real supporter whenever ups and downs, but not fickle fans…

Btw, most of friends who are studying in local uni are beginning to have their long holidays right… and those who are in singapore uni are going to have holidays soon also… Happy Holidays ya… but my holidays time is so stupid… by the time I'm back to Malaysia, everyone have already finished their holidays and have to back to uni… Means that any class or badge’s gathering and activities during their holidays, I have to miss again as last year la…

Life is always about gain and loses though…

Escapeless...

I realize that everyday my life in this hostel is just mainly spending most of time in my room, at this small table and space of mine, facing this square square laptop’s screen and wandering aimlessly to the world wide web through this little screen…then only after some time, forcing myself to open the books and struggling to study them for the sake of tomorrow’s classes… and this cycle goes on and on and on in the same way…

And then everyday rushing from one place to another place… facing same group of people but still feeling there is an invisible distance with them… and enduring same dull yet less productive classes…

Initially, I thought the study method and system here would be more creative and lively, but time after time it seems that here is just as worse as Malaysia…When we are trying to achieve the necessity of current life which is marks of all kinds of exams and tests, we lose ourselves, lose creativity and bravery to try, but just go for the safest way, apply only what is demanded by scheme, memorizing like hell and after that, get a feel of emptiness…

Most lecturers here just give a list of questions for self-study…and then we prepare the notes ourselves and present or answer them in the next class… After all, they never give explanation and even worse, we never know whether our answers and concepts are actually correct or not… In the end, people who study here may tend to think that what they know is everytime absolutely correct and if uncontrol, they might become boastful and over confident…

Some teachers’ English standards are just poor and it seems that they never get and understand what we answer to them… To impress them and make them to think that your answer is correct and you are ‘smart’, the only way is by talking English very fast, fluently and confidently, even though you crap till Holland or anywhere else la… Therefore, in short, it means that you have to be FAKE… fake in pretending that you are so confident even though you actually don’t know the exact answer or anything…

Eventually, I have to adapt and force myself to go into this kind of style too, just for the necessity of life, but not the desire of life… But it really just gives an empty feeling in the end as if we actually know nothing…

Nevertheless, knowledge and skills determines the standard of any person in any field, but not the mark or grade that come from nothing in classes… But when we can have neither both of them nor the first one which apparently is most important, our only choice is to hold on to the latter one which leaves least-but-better-than-none satisfaction to us…

Somehow, people tend to search for the true life to them when reach a particular stage of life… But environment always set a limit to people’s pure desire of life…

After all, I can’t change anything and can’t escape from this either…
I still have to work hard in the best possible way…

Life & Tag...

Got little thing to mention first... Due to daylight saving system, from today (Sunday) onwards, our time here will be changed to GMT +4 again... which mean time difference between here and Malaysia & Singapore is 4 hours now, 3 hours with Indonesia, and the other places, pls count yourself if you wish to know:)

Rather high a bit at this late night time...Don’t know why... Maybe it’s another weekend time... another Sunday is coming and also the time for our next round of football league... Involve in the league as player this time give me a different experience of hostel’s Saturday night life... As there are quite many of my floor-mates play for different teams, we like to tease each other and also being boastful of ourselves... They are fake and I feel I’m fake at that time too... haha... it’s just for fun...

This evening I just had a jamuan with my 3 Malaysian groupmates... The chicken rice that we cook was simply awesome... and my salad received good comments also wo... That was actually my first time to do salad... Those who could only see said it seem like KFC salad, those who ate said it taste like KFC salad... So, in conclusion, ‘it looks like KFC salad, taste like KFC salad, but it’s not KFC salad’...

Long time never takes picture of our self-made food... so show one here this time la...

It's true that we cooked all these by ourselves (except drinks la)... something I never think of I'm able to do that before coming to study here... but now it's part of our life...

Sorry if I seem like weird for all these craps... Perhaps I think instead of keep complaining the life is bored here, I can actually try to look for some interesting elements and happiness from small little things that happened around me in life...

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I rarely, or maybe never do tag... but this time let me give it a try...

Tagged by Pete (=Pig):

Rules of the tag:Remove 1 question from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?

I don’t know, really don’t know... I believe it’s all depending on fate...

2. What will you do when you feel really emo?

Keep myself alone in my room... Listening to soothing songs... But most of time, I choose to sleep...

3. What do you have in your mind now?

Faster finish answering this tag! And also feel sick to go through another week of same routine life...

4. Where is the place that you want to go most?

Old Trafford, Manchester.
Though I had been there for the first time not long ago, but then only I realized dreaming to go there for just once in a lifetime was actually damn silly... I will never satisfy with the number of times to go there...

5. If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?

A true musician who work fully with pure passion for music...
Should be till the end of the world, it’s still a dream...

6. Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?

Science of physic won’t bluff...
After all, I believe there is always a good thing behind a bad thing...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most right now?

Passion in life

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?

The end of the class each day...
Especially when thinking that I’m nearer to the time for me to fly back home again!

9. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?

This thing again ar... Fate decides...

10. List out three good things of the person who tagged you.

i) He can make impossible to be possible
- I don’t know what the hell has happened to make that we can be so friend...
The things that he good in, I’m not good...
The things I like, he doesn’t like and vice versa...

ii) He is good in gossiping... hehe...

iii)He is very determined when he really want to do something... but determination doesn’t equal to success in the end... simple example: his determination to keep fit.. =)

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

Must be female... wahahaha...
Others... keep in my heart first...

12. What type of person do you hate the most?

People who extremely tak tau malu...

13. What would you do if you won a million dollars?

Have no idea yet... at the moment the best solution is keeping them in bank first...

14.What is your ambition?

To be able to leave my job one day and travel to explore every parts of the world freely and without worries...

15. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

Generally I accept what I am now...
But I would be more than happy if I can change my ‘slumberness’ and laziness...

16. What is your favourite colour?

Bright colours especially blue...
They bring a fresh and lively feeling to me...

17. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

Hope

18. If there’s one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?

To be a world class football player who play for Manchester United... ahahaha...

19. What do you wish to have at the present time?

Just the best of me...

20. What quality in your friends do you value the most?

Sincerity

Finally, don't feel to tag anyone....

21

Well... No mistake, 3 days ago, it was my 21th birthday... After going through 21 years, one’s thought on life and world are changing with the progress of experience... 21 years, it’s just fast, purely fast... But I came through a lot of great memories, success, happiness, failures, disappointment and everything in life, yet there are still lots for me to endure...

The passed 25 March was great one... In fact, the whole birthday week was great... Again, for all the gifts, dishes and sincere wishes, whether you forgot or remembered in the beginning, or whether you were late or early, I truly appreciate them...

Anyway, talk bout life here recently... Initially I thought this sem would be a really relax and full of free time for me to at least manage this blog more often... Ya, indeed our class time is very much lesser than other sems, but in the end, I involve in some activities which occupied much of my free time also...

First of all, after being asked for long time, I decided to accept the call-up from our uni table tennis team to join their training... But it was not a very nice one for me so far... Last Saturday I joined the uni team training for the first time, but I was the only Malaysian and foreign student in the first team while all the other players are Russians... It’s hard for me to communicate well with them and also hard to understand the trainers’ instructions... Anyway, I will continue to give it a try for some time then only see how la... The chance to compete in Russian Uni level tournament is still very tempting...

Other than that, now the hottest topic here is the launch of another spring season of VSMU Malaysian 9-man Football League on last Sunday... and most important is, this is the first time I involve as player in the league... Our 2nd year badge decides to form our own team to compete in the league this season, so I also join la... So, the players of this team are mainly from 2nd year with addition of few players from other badges... But most important is the friendship spirit of ours in the team... and the league here is quite pro one leh, we got training for several times in a week...

Last Sunday was our first league match, against runners-up of last autumn season, and we banged a shock by winning the match! Thanks to a brace from Nadzul and also the dedicated defensive teamwork... We are just an average team and it is quite hard to win even a game in this league actually... Before this got teams couldn’t win any game in a season or even lost all the games... So it was a special result for me to win my first game... haha... Hopefully we can get another good result in our next game this Sunday la...

Anyway, I’m not good in playing football la... Good in watching nia... but I play this time just to support the idea of forming a team with our badge friends as core... and now becoming older and older ady wo, I should appreciate the ability to run freely before the time when body can’t follow my intention already...

Ok...life here is still boring as usual... Those non-academic activities are the little things to spark our life up here... and the weather here are warmer and warmer d, near to extent of hot soon...

Short random...

Life is tough...
Biochem is even tough...

And most disgusting... don't know memorize all that silly structures and cycles for what.......
Other than that, my life still good... as plain as always...

15 March...
10 more days to go for another benchmark in my life...
3 n half months to go for the time to fly back home!